This week, we engaged in an exercise from the podcast, https://www.healingjustice.org/podcast/41
Going through the exercises was fascinating. As I did, I was in a very odd mood and my answers surprised me. I felt all my decades of cultural conditioning as the word "desire" immediately rubbed me wrong. As a woman and a caregiver, my family and societal messages nearly clobbered the idea that I have the right to pursue anything I desire right out of me. Instead, I learned to either ignore my desires or cloak them in altruistic padding. So sad. It happens less now, but my reaction to the word reveals that I still need to wrestle with it.
As an experiment, I went and did the podcast exercise again a few days later, and it was a very new experience. I have been thinking that the 3 concentric circles (Why? How? What?) could start to also be kind of Venn diagrams of all the different answers for me, with different priorities and focuses, depending on what felt real to me on any given day. I suspect that with enough repetition, they would merge into a more complete, authentic sort of truth. Maybe that is a bit too much info about the inner workings of my mind, but I want to see if repetition, perhaps as a grounding spiritual practices, could bring even more clarity. Perhaps I just really enjoy the intentional "co-creating with the Mystery?"
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